Giving and Receiving: Everything has a Season

         How hard is it to give to someone in need or to give in general? Especially when you are always on guard since being in the world has taught you that if you give you are weak or it has taught you if you give you are always done wrong. No one ever appreciates what you have done or continue to do for them, you seem to always have someone taking advantage of you and using you for what you have. Then you see them disappear when you fall on hard times and you look around and there is no one there, well at least the people you assumed would be there is m-i-a after you have helped them out for so long.

       After coming into the truth this has been a hard pill for a lot of people to swallow. You get into the understand wanting to give whatever you can to help a sister or a brother by any means possible. Not realizing that you naturally will expect something in return when you feel like that person should be able to give it to you. That's why the scripture says that the Father will reward you and not to look for the rewards from men. Often times in these situations you start to feel a certain way and look at that person or people different because the Spirit was on you to help and do something but instead of looking for the Most High to bring you out of your troubles you are looking to man because you feel like they owe you something from before.
       True enough you may not be wrong in every situation but one fact is for sure there is a time for everything. You need to take the time to realize that when you are being emotional and feel that someone should do this or that for you that you have the solution in front of you and it may not need to come from that source. You are so caught up being miserable and searching for others to do what only the Most High promised to do for you that you end up having an evil eye and it then spreads to everything that you think about. Having doubts about communing with your fellow sisters and brothers and murdering them by murmuring and speaking bad things. Not even knowing what they are going through at that moment. Maybe they aren't spiritually or physically able to do anything but that doesn't mean they didn't or don't appreciate everything the Most High has put on your spirit to do for them.
       Through many trials I know for sure and can truly say I have fell victim to these thoughts or that negative spirit. Now after all this time realizing that I had the tools to make my situation better right in front of me instead I was looking to see who didn't have my back during that rough time. I now see that when there was absolutely no way the Father always made away and in the end it doesn't matter where or who it came from because everything is from the Father. He puts the spirit on whom He wants to do His will. No more will I look at anyone as if they weren't there. Be mindful of what you wish for because you could very well have that person who you expect something from sitting there with you with all kinds of negativity and make your faith lower and feel worse about the situation.
   Many people come in and out your life. Your reap what you sow and everything has a season. Every season is not your season to get a helping and but it would be better to give a helping hand than to be the one who is always needing help.